天使不住天堂

所謂圓滑，似乎永遠帶點距離
                                                                               
                                                                               
還記得國二那年的教訓，讓我改變很多
更常將笑容放在臉上，更常使用請謝謝對不起
是高二以後吧，認識了那群肆無忌憚的人
讓收斂的心又放了出去
                                                                               
                                                                               
直到現在
很多人一直包容著我的任性
自以為一樣圓融，自以為身邊的人還是那群可以肆無忌憚的人
但其實
都不一樣了
                                                                               
                                                                               
看不懂別人臉色，探不得別人底限
繼續開著肆無忌憚的玩笑
                                                                               
                                                                               
我想我懂了
難怪人家說長越大越不容易交到好朋友
總是帶段距離的交情，很淺很淺
一深，便忘記那底限
好複雜，好深奧，好想念那些不用顧忌的從前
                                                                               
                                                                               
這就是所謂的被迫長大嗎?!
                                                                               
                                                                               
這個圈，就是這樣小
好的壞的都會這樣被流傳
是怎麼樣也不可能離開
淡化存在、縮小自我
關上有話直說的口，少嗆人
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
君子之交淡如水
就都這樣淡淡的，也許最好